Merry Christmas!

At that time the Roman emperor, Augustus, decreed that a census should be taken throughout the Roman Empire. (This was the first census taken when Quirnius was governor of Syria.) All returned to their own towns to register for this census. And because Joseph was a descendant of King David, he had to go to Bethlehem in Judea, David's ancient home. He traveld there from the village of Nazareth in Galilee. He took with him Mary, his fiancee, who was obviously pregnant by this time.

And while they were there, the time came for her baby to be born. She gave birth to her first child, a son. She wrapped him snugly in strips of cloth and laid him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the village inn.

That night some shepherds were in the fields outside the village, guarding their flocks of sheep. Suddenly, an angel of the Lord appeared among them, and the radiance of the Lord's glory surrounded them. They were terribly frightened, but the angel reassured them "Don't be afraid!" he said. "I bring you good news of great joy for everyone! The Savior--yes, the Messiah, the Lord--has been born tonight in Bethlehem, the city of David! And this is how you will recognize him: You will find a baby lying in a manger, wrapped snugly in strips of cloth!"

Suddenly, the angel was joined by a vast host of others--the armies of heaven--praising God:

"Glory to God in the highest heaven,

and peace on earth to all whom God favors."

When the angels had returned to heaven, the shepherds said to each other, "Come on, let's go to Bethlehem! Let's see this wonderful thing that has happened which the Lord has told us about."

They ran to the village and found Mary and Joseph. And there was the baby, lying the manger. Then the shepherds told everyone what had happened and what the angel had said to them about this child. All who heard the shepherds' story were astonished, but Mary quietly treasured these things in her heart and thought about them often. The shepherds went back to their fields and flocks, glorifying and praising God for what the angels had told them, and because they had seen the child, just as the angel had said.

Luke 2.1-20

Wishing you a Merry Christmas--filled with God's blessings

and may your new year be filled with God's presence.

Celebrating the birth of our Savior--Jesus--the Messiah!

Be blessed!

[I will not be writing another blog until January 7th]

Life Journal December 19, 2007
Today's readings: John 5-6

"Do You Want to Be Well?"

Scripture

Afterward Jesus returned to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish holy days. Inside the city, near the Sheep Gate, was the pool of Bethesada, with five covered porches. Crowds of sick people--blind, lame, or paralyzed--lay on the porches. One of the men lying there had been sick for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him and knew how long he had been ill, he asked him, "Would you like to get well?"

"I can't, sir," the sick man said, "for I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred up. While I am trying to get there, someone else always get in ahead of me."

Jesus told him, "Stand up, pick up your sleeping mat, and walk!"

Instantly, the man was healed! He rolled up the mat and began walking!

John 5.1-9

Observation

Getting well often takes action on our part.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

"Would you like to get well?"

YES, Lord!

"Then do something!!"

Ouch!

I am just like the sick man--I have so many excuses why I can't do what I need to do to get well. So, I whine about being "sick." And Jesus says to me, just as He did to the man, "Stand up, pick up your sleeping mat, and walk!" In other words, do something about it!! He gives the power and the strength to take that first step--but we have to be willing to take it . . . we have to trust enough to take it.

So, the question comes down to--Do I really want to be well???? If I truly do, then I will do the hard work that is required [trusting Christ to give me the strength and power] to take a step . . . . and then another . . . . and then another. But, nothing will happen or change if I don't do my part!!!! (Other than getting sicker and sicker!)

Prayer

Jesus, I do want to get well. I am powerless without You. I cannot even take the first step without You there. Like a baby taking it's first step, I need Your loving arms open so I can have a safe place to walk to. I know that if I fall, You will be there to pick me up, dust me off, and put me back on my feet. Lord, give me the strength I need. I am a mess without You. Thank You for Your mercy and grace. Thank You for healing me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for not allowing me to remain the same.

Life Journal December 15, 2007
Today's readings: James 1-5

Faith Enough to Act

Scripture

Dear brothers and sisters, what's the use of saying you have faith if you don't prove it by your actions? That kind of faith can't save anyone. Suppose you see a brother or sister who needs food or clothing, and you say, "Well, good-bye and God bless you; stay warm and eat well"--but then you don't give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?

So you see, it isn't enough just to have faith. Faith that doesn't show itself by good deeds is no faith at all--it is dead and useless."

James 2.14-17

Observation

If we truly have faith in God it will show in what we say and do. . . . it is more than mere words.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

I hear it often--I am saved by grace not by works. As if that gives an excuse not to put our faith to work and let it show through good deeds. It is especially true here in IF, afterall we do not want to be confused with the mormons--who believe that good works are essential to their salvation and placement in heaven. So, we have an excuse to not live it out.

I have gotten in trouble more than once for suggesting that if we truly believe that it will show itself through our actions not just some of our words. How can I claim that God lives in me and not show it???

The biggest challenge for me is to show it when I don't want to--to those I judge as not necessarily "worthy" of receiving my good works, my kind deeds. Who am I to judge who I should help and who I shouldn't?? Yet I do. I see someone on the side of the road and make a quick decision as to whether I will give them a couple of dollars or not--and it is all based on my mood and my judgement at that moment.

Jesus taught that when we help feed the hungry, give a drink, invite folks into our homes, clothe the naked, care for the sick, and visit those in prison that we are doing it to Him. [Matthew 25.31-46] He did not teach that we were to judge who was worthy--we are called to love and live out our faith in His name.

How different the world would be if I live out my faith--if I allow it to be more than just words. If I share the love of Jesus Christ through action. Love must be an action if it is really going to make a difference and change the world.

Prayer

Father God, thank You that I am called to action--not to just sit by and watch others at work. But I am called to work and serve You. May everything I do always point to You. May I see others through Your eyes and serve them as if I was serving You. Not just tossing a couple of dollars their way so I can feel good about helping someone--but may I actually make myself uncomfortable and inconvenienced for the sake of others. You did it for me . . . may I do it for others. Thank You Father!!

Life Journal December 12, 2007
Today's readings: Hebrews 5-8

Experienced

Scripture

Although He was a Son, He learned [active, special] obedience through what He suffered. And, [His completed experience] making Him perfectly [equipped]. He became the Author and Source of eternal salvation to all those who give heed and obey Him.

Hebrews 5.8-9

Observation

The experience we receive through our sufferings equips us to be who God has called us to be.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

I would generally like to be able to move around the suffering piece. I don't like suffering. And yet, God makes it clear that it is part of how God shapes me and equips me to be the person He wants me to be. . . . the person He has called me to be.

It is amazing to me how God can use everything in my life [the good, the bad, and the ugly] to equip me to serve Him. Through it I learn obedience and am shaped.

I need to look at how God is using the tough stuff in my life--or how He might want to use it. But, again, that requires me dying to myself and living in Him. . . . a daily challenge.

Prayer

Lord, I don't like suffering and I don't like the tough stuff. I wish I could go around it all. But, You tell me in Your word that it helps in shaping me and making me who You want me to be. . . . So, I ask for Your presence, Your strength, Your wisdom in my life so that I can stand through it and grow and become more and more like Your Son, Jesus Christ. I have such a long way to go/grow. I know that it means I have to continue to die to myself, all the time, if I am to walk in the calling You have and are equipping me for. I recognize I cannot do this alone. I need You to come and fill me and take over my life completely. Come Lord Jesus.

Life Journal December 11, 2007
Today's Readings: Philemon; Hebrews 1-4

Rest

Scripture

So there is a special rest still waiting for the people of God. For all who enter into God's rest will find rest from their labors, just as God rested after creating the world.

Hebrews 4.9-10 (NLT)

So then, there is still awaiting a full and complete Sabbath rest reserved for the [true] people of God. For he who has once entered [God's] rest also has ceased from [the weariness and pain] of human labors, just as God rested from those labors peculiarly His own.

Hebrews 4.9-10 (Amplified)

Observation

God set the example of resting--of a Sabbath rest--for us to follow.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

I am not very good at resting--let alone taking a true Sabbath rest. I cannot tell you the last time I actually did nothing but spend a day in the presence of God--in His Word, in prayer and listening, . . . . just being. I find that I feel guilty if I do that--I have convinced myself that I need to always be busy.

But, that's not God's plan for my life. We are called to spend a day a week (if we follow God's model) to do nothing but rest and renew in the Lord. That doesn't just mean not physically doing anything, but to also mentally set aside all that we are carrying.

How different my life would be if I would be faithful to this. I need to do it for myself and for others.

So, with that said, what day this week will I take as my Sabbath? It has to start somewhere and sometime . . . and there is no better time than the present!

Prayer

Father God, how much better my life would be if I lived the life You created me to live . . . with the appropriate periods of rest. . . . . resting completely in You. I confess I'm not very good at that, so

I need Your help. I'm not very good at just "being." But, I know I really need it. So, Lord, help me learn to say no to busyness and YES to You! Thank You!!

Life Journal December 8, 2007
Today's Readings: 1 Timothy 1-4

God Filled

Scripture

The purpose of my instruction is that all the Christians there would be filled with love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and sincere faith.

1 Timothy 1.5

Observation

The kind of love that we should have--as believers--is the type that comes from God filling our lives with His presence.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

To be filled with love that comes from--a pure heart, a clear conscience, and a sincere faith. That can only happen when God fills my life . . . . and I allow Him to take over my life. This can't happen any other way. I cannot have a pure heart or a clear conscience or even a sincere faith unless I allow God to completely permeate my life . . . . to so fill it that there isn't room for anything else. How wonderful that would be . . . . but, in reality . . . . it is a constant struggle. I want that to be my life. I want to be so filled with God's love that there is no room for anything else. But, it seems, that there are so many other things that get in the way of that happening.

So, how can I be different?? I have to be intentional (once again) at allowing God into all parts of my life. I have to continually die to myself so that He can have more and more of me. I have to be willing to let go of all those things I hold on to so tightly and just cling to Him.

It is going to require a lot of work on my part . . . . but God and I can do it--one step, one prayer, one outstretched hand at a time.

Prayer

Lord, make me into the person You want me to be. That's a scary thing to pray. . . . because I don't know exactly what that means. But, I want to be the child You want me to be. I want to love as You want me to love. But, I can only do it with You taking over my life. . . . . all of it. It's Yours Lord. Do with me as You please.

Life Journal December 7, 2007
Today's readings: Colossians 1-4

Underwear of Love

Scripture

Since God chose you to be the holy people whom he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. You must make allowance for each other's faults and forgive the person who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. And the most important piece of clothing you must wear is love. Love is what binds us all together in perfect harmony. And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are all called to live in peace. And always be thankful.

Colossians 3.12-15

Observation

We must put on love first if we are going to clothe ourselves with the other things. Otherwise, none of it will matter.

Application

I need to be more intentional at remembering to clothe myself with the fruits of the Spirit. And it all starts with love--hence the underwear of love. First thing I put on and the last thing I take off. If I don't put it on first the rest just won't happen. Without love I won't have tenderhearted mercy, I won't be kind or humble or gentle or patient. And, without love, there will be no harmony--no peace.

If I want to live the life that I have been chosen for and called to live--then I must dress myself [intentionally] everyday with love.

Prayer

Father God, we wonder why we don't have harmony and peace within Your Church--it's because we don't love each other as You have called us to. Lord, help me to love others better--love them with Your love. I can't do it by myself--it just doesn't work. I need You to love through me. Thank You for Your love for me!!

Life Journal December 6, 2007
Today's reading: Philippians 1-4

Shining Brightly

Scripture

Then make me truly happy by agreeing wholeheartedly with each other, loving one another, and working together with one heart and purpose.

Don't be selfish; don't live to make a good impression others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself. Don't think only about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too, and what they are doing. . . .

In everything you do, stay away from complaining and arguing, so that no one can speak a word of blame against you. You are to live clean, innocent lives as children of God in a dark world full of crooked and perverse people. Let your lives shine brightly before them.

Philippians 2.2-2-4, 13-15

Observation

It's not about me.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

These verses to the Philippians reminds me, yet once again, to put others first--to work at getting along--to quit complaining and arguing--and to be a bright light in a dark world.

It is so easy to slip into a "me" mindset--wanting my way (because afterall, it is right), trying to make a good impression, be so engrossed with my own life that I don't see the hurting going on around me. And then I have the nerve to call myself a Christian . . . . a believer. No wonder the world wants less and less to do with organized religion. Who can blame them when we treat each other so poorly both within our walls and outside. And often doing it in the name of Christ. How that must hurt God's heart.

It is a matter of me being intentional about my actions. They cannot only be something I do--they must become a part of me, something that I live out everyday . . . with everyone I come into contact with. I cannot let my guard down--not even for a minute. I represent the Most High God. I cannot--I must not act in a way that does not bring Him glory and honor. There is too much at stake--the lives of the lost. And I am accountable for my heart and my actions. I must shine brightly!

Prayer

Good morning Father, Your Word cuts straight to the heart. I ask for Your forgiveness for all the ways that I let you down through both action and deed. I am so sorry that I allow my own desires to get in the way of serving You. Lord, I want to be the person You have called me to be. I want to shine brightly for You. I don't want to complain and argue. Lord, Your Word says that You are working in me, giving me the desire to obey You and the power to do what pleases You--help me to listen to You and do what You ask! Lord, I pray that I might become a vessel through which You can shine brightly!

Life Journal December 5, 2007
Today's readings: Ephesians 5-6; Psalm 119.1-80

Living It Real

Scripture

Follow God's example in everything you do, because you are his dear children. Live a life filled with love for others, following the example of Christ, who loved you and gave himself as a sacrifice to take away your sins. And God was pleased, because that sacrifice was like sweet perfume to him.

Let there be no sexual immorality, impurity, or greed among you. Such sins have no place among God's people. Obscene stories, foolish talk, and coarse jokes--these are not for you. Instead, let there be thankfulness to God. You can be sure that no immoral, impure, or greedy person will inherit the Kingdom of Christ and of God. For a greedy person is really an idolater who worships the things of this world. Don't be fooled by those who try to excuse these sins, for the terrible anger of God comes upon all those who disobey him. Don't participate in the things these people do. For though your hearts were once full of light from the Lord, and your behavior should show it! For this light within you produces only what is good and right and true.

Ephesians 5.1-9

Observation

If we say that we belong to God then we should act like it.

Application (How will I be different because of what I have just read?)

Do I live a life that is filled with love and light? That is the bottom line.

I wish I could say this is the way I live all the time . . . . but truthfully, I would have to say that I don't all the time. My life is not always filled with love for others. And, I don't think I always shine brightly with Christ's light. It's not that I don't want to--but I let down my guard and get pulled away--sometimes I don't even realize it is happening--other times, well, I know it and I don't do anything about it.

For me to live a life filled with love for others and to live a life filled with light, I have to be in the Word every day and in prayer always.

What is scary is the fact that sometimes I move away from these things and haven't even realized it. I get busy [often with church-related busyness] and next thing I know, I look at what's going on in my life and wonder how I got so far removed from where I am suppose to be.

The end of the Ephesians reading, today, reminds me what I need to do. . . . "Put on all of God's armor so that I will be able to stand firm against all strategies and tricks of the Devil." [Ephesians 6.10-18]

Prayer

Lord, thank You for loving me enough that You point out the painful truths in my life. Lord, I want to live a life filled with loving others and being a light all the time. . . . even when I don't feel like it. So, I pray that You will continue to strengthen me, continue to fill me, continue to remind me, and continue to fill me with Your love and Your light. I know that I cannot do it on my own. Remind me in the morning before I crawl out of bed to put on the full armor of God so that I will be able to withstand all that comes against me. And, Lord, I pray for discernment . . . . that I know what "battles" are worth fighting, which ones are distractions, and which ones I need to lose. . . . Not an easy thing! Thank You for loving me enough that You don't give up on me!

Life Journal December 3, 2007
Today's readings: Romans 13-16

Kingdom Living

Scripture

"For the Kingdom of God is not a matter of what we eat or drink, but of living a life of goodness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. If you serve Christ with this attitude, you will please God. And other people will approve of you, too. So then, let us aim for harmony in the church and try to build each other up."

Romans 14.17-19

Observation

It is the way we live out our faith and our attitude towards God and others that is important--not the little petty things that we often get distracted with.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

How do I spend my time--looking at others and judging them based on petty differences--or walking and serving Christ with a life of goodness and peace and joy? Do I work toward harmony in the church and building others up--or looking for little things to get upset about?

It is so easy to get distracted by the unimportant and not live the life I am called to live. My focus needs to be on what is truly important. I need to ask myself--over and over--is it a Kingdom issue? I must focus on my service to Christ, my attitude toward others, and my part in bringing harmony to the church. The enemy works at keeping me distracted by the petty things. I must keep my focus on Christ and the life He has called me to.

Prayer

Father God, forgive me for how easily distracted I am--how quick I am to focus on the petty stuff. Help me to stay focused only on Kingdom issues--those things that move Your Kingdom forward. Help me to discern what is important and what I need to just let go. Sometimes I think I am getting better to only catch myself in the midst of the petty stuff . . . . sucked in by the agenda of others. And, Lord, please help me to be an encourager and be a peacemaker--bringing harmony to your church. Help me to demonstrate to others that bringing harmony is not giving in to what others want necessarily. But, relinquishing our will to You and those things that are important to You. Thank You for Your patience with me! I want to be pleasing to You.

Life Journal November 27, 2007
Today's Readings: Psalm 125; Matthew 26-27

Judging the Gift

Scripture

Now when Jesus came back to Bethany and was in the house of Simon the leper, a woman came up to Him with an alabaster flask of very precious perfume, and she poured it on His head as He reclined at table. And when the disciples saw it, they were indignant, saying, "For what purpose is all this waste? For this perfume might have been sold for a large sum, and the money given to the poor."

But Jesus, fully aware of this, said to them, "Why do you bother the woman? She has done a noble (praise-worthy and beautiful) thing to Me. For you always have the poor among you, but you will not always have Me. In pouring this perfume on My body she has done something to prepare Me for My burial. Truly, I tell you, wherever this good news (the Gospel) is preached in the whole world, what this woman has done will be told also in memory of her."

Matthew 26.6-13 (Amplified Bible)

Observation

The woman gave Jesus all she had . . . . and there were those, those who were close to Jesus, who didn't like it.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

How often do I not approve of a gift that is given to God? It's either too much or not enough. Who am I to judge the gift or the giver? Instead of appreciating and encouraging others in giving what they have, I find that I sometimes do the opposite. Is it because I am jealous? Is it because I didn't think to do it? Really doesn't matter what the reason--I need to stop and celebrate the gift given and the giver.

Prayer

Father, forgive me for the times that I have been like the disciples, judging the gift and the giver. May I see both the giver and the gift through your eyes and appreciate and celebrate them. And, may I do a better job of giving my all to you. In Jesus name, the most precious gift I have ever been given, amen.

Life Journal November 26, 2007
Today's readings: Matthew 23-25

Sheep or Goat?

Scripture

[Jesus speaking] "But when the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, then he will sit upon his glorious throne. All the nations will be gathered in his presence, and he will separate them as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. He will place the sheep at his right hand and the goats at his left. Then the King will say to those on the right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the Kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. For I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. I was a stranger, and you invited me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me clothing. I was sick, and you cared for me. I was in prison, and you visited me.'

"Then these righteous ones will reply, 'Lord, when did we ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you something to drink? Or a stranger and show you hospitality? Or naked and give you clothing? When did we ever see you sick or in prison, and visit you?' And the King will tell them, 'I assure you, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!'

"Then the King will turn to those on the left and say, 'Away with you cursed ones, into the eternal fire prepared for the Devil and his demons! For I was hungry, and you didn't feed me. I was thirsty, and you didn't give me anything to drink. I was a stranger, and you didn't invite me into your home. I was naked, and you gave me no clothing. I was sick and in prison, and you didn't visit me.'

"Then they will reply, 'Lord, when did we ever see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison, and not help you?' And he will answer, 'I assure you, when you refused to help the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were refusing to help me. And they will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous will go into eternal life.'"

Matthew 25.31-46

Observation

Jesus makes it very clear that we are to help others [not judge where they are]--and in that way demonstrate that His love lives in us.

Application [How will I be different today because of what I have just read?]

It is easy to drive or walk past someone who needs help--thinking . . . . in my "righteousness". . . . that they are not deserving of my help--afterall, they could get a job and make better choices.

What if Jesus allowed them to be in the position where they needed help to see if I would help them? What if it is Jesus that I am walking or driving past?

When Jesus talks about the "least of these" he is not just talking about those I feel are deserving of my help--but anyone who needs help.

And what is interesting in these verses is that I don't hear Jesus telling them to just "throw money at them" --but to invest in the person--to feed the hungry, to give a drink to the thirsty, to invite folks into our home, to clothe the naked, to care for the sick, and to visit those in prison. Giving money is easy, but it isn't very personal. Helping folks means getting involved.

This is going to require me to step outside of my comfort zone. I don't mind helping with money--but to get involved in someone's life is completely different. Am I a sheep or a goat? Am I willing to do what God is calling me to do? Am I willing to love the unloveable, the outcast?? I can only do it if I see myself doing it for Jesus. I have to look through different eyes.

Prayer

Father God, this isn't going to come easy . . . . but I want to love in Your name. I want to reach out in Your name. I want to see people through Your eyes, not mine. May my heart be broken in the same way Your's is over the lost and outcast. I need more of You in my life to do this Lord. Fill me to overflowing. Thank You for trusting me with helping and loving others, I pray that I will be a faithful servant. In Jesus name

Life Journal November 18, 2007
Today's Readings: Psalm 124; 2 Corinthians 11-13

Serving In My Weaknesses

Scripture

"But to keep me from getting puffed up, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from getting proud.

"Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, 'My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.' So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may work through me. Since I know it is all for Christ's good, I am quite content with my weaknesses and with insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong."

2 Corinthians 12.7b-10

Observation

God can use what I and others perceive as weaknesses.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

How often do I use my weaknesses as excuses to not do something--or to blame for something that I didn't do well [not necessarily because of weakness--but because of me not being prepared, or going about it wrong, etc.]?

I sometimes [probably more times than I would like to admit] allow my weaknesses to serve as excuses--not allowing God to work through them. Ouch.

I need to allow God to use all of me--including my many weaknesses--for His glory.

Prayer

Lord God, sometimes I don't see/understand how you could use me at all--especially with all my weaknesses. Yet, Your Word tells me that in my weakness You show Yourself--that way You get the glory--not me. Use my weaknesses. Use me. Thank You!

Life Journal November 17, 2007
Today's reading: 2 Corinthians 7-10

Giving From the Heart

Scripture
"Remember this--a farmer who plants only a few seeds will get a small crop. But, the one who plants generously will get a generous crop. You must each make up your own mind as to how much you should give. Don't give reluctantly or in response to pressure. For God loves the person who gives cheerfully. And God will generously provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others. As the Scriptures say,

"'Godly people give generously to the poor.

Their good deeds will never be forgotten.'

"For God is the one who gives seed to the farmer and then bread to eat. In the same way, he will gtive you many opportunities to do good, and he will produce a great harvest of generosity in you.

"Yes, you will be enriched so that you can give even more generously. "

2 Corinthians 9.6-11a

Observation

You cannot out give God.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

A good reminder of how generous God is. Everything I have comes from Him and belongs to Him. I need to be "alert" to where He would have me give--giving in His name--to glorify Him.

Where have I been holding back?? I need to be more aware of God's nudging, especially when it comes to helping and giving to the poor.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, everything I have came from You and belongs to You. Help me to remember that. Help me to do what You want me to with all I have. Help me to remember that You provide for all my needs--I cannot out-give You! Afterall, You gave the greatest gift of all--Your Son, Jesus Christ, in whose name I pray.

Life Journal November 16, 2007
Today's Readings: 2 Corinthians 3-6

A New Life

Scripture
"What this means is that those who become Christians become new persons. They are not the same anymore, for the old life is gone. A new life has begun!"

2 Corinthians 5.17

Observation

We are to be transformed into a new creation when Jesus Christ comes to reside in us.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

It is easy for me to look at others and "judge" where they are in their Christian walk. Are they a new person?

Rather than worry about others, I need to focus on myself and my walk. I need to make sure that I am not falling back into old ways and old habits. I am called to live and be different. Am I??

When I get upset or lose patience with someone am I reflecting the love of God? Do I look for the faults in others to build myself up? My walk now should not reflect my old life. Does it? Probably more than I would like to admit.

Today I need to be aware of the life I am living--and my attitude toward others. Do I reflect Christ or the world?

Prayer

Lord, today as I walk and work and reach out to others, may my life reflect a new me--because of You and what You have done for me. Lord, may my focus be on You today as I walk in the newness of life that You have called me to.

Life Journal November 15, 2007

Today's Readings: Job 41-42; 2 Corinthians 1-2

Suffering For Christ

Scripture

"All praise to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is the source of every mercy and the God who comforts us. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. You can be sure that the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. So when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your benefit and salvation! For when God comforts us, it is so that we, in turn, can be an encouragement to you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. We are confident that as you share in suffering, you will also share God's comfort."

2 Corinthians 1.3-7

Observation

Our troubles allow us to be comforted by God--so that in turn we can more fully understand the struggles of others and comfort them.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

I don't know that I had thought about my troubles being suffering for Christ. That is an interesting thought--especially this week.

What I find is that most people really don't want to be comforted in their troubles--they (includingg me) want to whine and complain and have people take their side about how they have been wronged. I don't think that agreeing with someone within the midst of their troubles is necessarily comforting. It is certainly not how God comforts us.

We are to use our troubles . . . . and the comfort that God gives us . . . . to encourage others. We are even told that the more we are weighed down with troubles that God uses that for the benefit and salvation of others.

I have to admit I get a little self-centered in my troubles--feeling very sorry for myself--and sometimes not really wanting comfort until I have felt enough pity for myself that I am ready to move on. How different would my life be (and a shorter period of struggling with my troubles) if I looked to God immediately for comfort and then focused on being an encouragement to others who might be going through the same or similiar thing? Hmmmmmmm

Once again, it is a matter of taking my eyes off myself and putting them on God. Looking for the higher purpose of what is going on in my life and allowing God to use ALL of me.

Prayer

Father, I need to look differently at my troubles. I need to look to You quicker and to then use my experiences as comfort and encouragement for others. IT IS NOT ABOUT ME! Thank You for reminding me--yet again. Thank You for Your patience with me. Use me for Your glory.

Life Journal November 14, 2007
Today's readings: Psalm 149, 1 Corinthians 15, 16

Everything Done With Love

Scripture

"Be on guard. Stand true to what you believe. Be courageous. Be strong. And everything you do must be done with love."

1 Corinthians 16.13-14

Observation

While we are instructed to be on guard, to stand true to what we believe, to be courageous and to be strong--we are called to do them (and everything else) with love.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

Paul's words are ones that I needed to hear today. "Be on guard. Stand true to what you believe. Be courageous. Be strong." Yesterday was a rough day. Everyone has them. These words make me want to stand a little taller--a little straighter--ready to face a new day.

The catch comes in the next sentence. "And everything you do must be done with love." All of those things are to be done in love . . . not anger . . . . not getting even . . . . not giving in . . . . We are to stand true, be courageous and be strong--all in God's love.

The last sentence doesn't say should be done with love, could be done with love--no, that EVERYTHING I do MUST be done with love. Which takes me back to chapter 13.

So, that means I need to depend more and more on the work of God, through His Holy Spirit, in my life--because I am not capable in my own strength to do any of those two verses. Today, I will be on guard. Today I will stand true to what I believe. Today I will be courageous. Today I will be strong. And everything I do today I will do with love. Not because I am able to do these things--but because of what God is capable of doing in me and through me.

Prayer

Lord God, I am feeling pretty beat up and weak today. I pray that You will be with me and work in my life so that I may be on guard. That I would stand true to what I believe. That I would be courageous and strong. And, above all, that I would do everything today in love. Not the kind of love that I am capable of--but rather the kind that comes from You. Thank You, Lord. Thank You for Your Son, Jesus Christ, in whose name I pray.

Life Journal November 13, 2007
Today's readings: Job 39, 40; 1 Corinthians 13, 14

Loving Others

Scripture

"If I could speak in any language in heaven or on earth but didn't love others, I would only be making meaningless noise like a loud gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I knew all the mysteries of the future and knew everything about everything, but didn't love others, what good would I be? And if I had the gift of faith so that I could speak to a mountain and make it move, without love I would be no good to anybody. If I gave everything I have to the porr and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn't love others, I would be of no value whatsoever.

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not deman its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

"Love will last forever, . . ."

1 Corinthians 13.1-8a

Observation

Love is what matters most.

Application

The Love chapter. It is often used in weddings or in celebration of anniversaries or other special occasions when we talk about love. All nice. All comfortable. It's easy to share these words or think of them with people that we love.

But, I think these words are suppose to go further than that. Not just those that I already love. What if these words are what I am called to do with everyone? What if I am to take these words to heart and love EVERYONE this way--not just those who I already love or those I find easy to love.

These words about the characteristics of love paint for me a picture of God's love. . . . therefore giving me a picture of what love really looks like. It is more than a word--it is more than a feeling--it is intentional . . . it is action.

So, God is calling me to love everyone this way. Wow. That won't be easy. But, imagine the impact it could have if I truly do try and love everyone God puts in my path this way. It will be life-changing for me . . . . and maybe others. It is certainly something that won't be expected by many (actually more people than I would like to admit). Quite a challenge. Am I up for it? I pray that I am .

Prayer

Father God, as I read about love, I see a glimpse of Your love for me. It is the kind of love that I am commanded to love You with, to love my neighbor with, and to love my brothers and sisters in Christ with. I cannot do it without Your help, Your strength, Your wisdom, Your eyes, Your heart, and Your Word residing within me. I want to learn to love as You love--not just those I like and love already, but everyone You put in my path. It's scary asking this, Lord. I know that there will be a cost to it. Afterall, Your love for me cost You Your Son. But Lord, I want to be more and more like You. So, help me love like You do. Thank You. And, by the way, I LOVE YOU, heavenly Father.

Life Journal November 12, 2007
Today's readings: Job 37, 38 [one of my favorites chapters]; 1 Corinthians 12

Everyone Has a Place

Scripture

"The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up only one body. So it is with the body of Christ. Some of us are Jews, some are Gentiles, some are slaves, and some are free. But we have all been baptized into Christ's body by one Spirit, and we have all received the same Spirit.

"Yes, the body has many different parts, not just one part. If the foot says, 'I am not a part of the body because I am not a hand,' that does not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear says, 'I am not part of the body because I am only an ear and not an eye,' would that make it any less a part of the body? Suppose the whole body were an eye--then how would you hear? Or if your whole body were just a big ear, how could you smell anything?

"But God made our bodies with many parts, and he has put each part just where he wants it. What a strange thing a body would be if it had only one part! Yes, there are many parts, but only one body. The eye can never say to the hand, 'I don't need you.' The head can't say to the feet, 'I don't need you.'

"In fact, some of the parts that seem weakest and least important are really the most necessary. And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect from the eyes of others those parts that should not be seen, wheil other parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together in such a way that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other equally. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad.

"Now all of you together are Christ's body and each one of you is a separate and necessary part of it."

1 Corinthians 12.12-27

Observation

EVERYONE has a place and a role/part in the body of Christ, His Church.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

I really didn't intend to do this Scripture today. I was all set to do one of my favorites from Job. But, I felt very drawn to day to interact with these verses in 1 Corinthians. Why? What do you want me to learn today, God?

Do I recognize everyone's place in the body? Do I see each one as important? Do I encourage all members of the body--or do I just look to those who do "what I want them to do" or those "who agree with me?" Hmmmmmmm

I know that I find myselft getting frustrated when I see people not fulfilling their role in the body--those who just come and sit and don't participate . . . . . and whine/complain. I think of all we could be accomplishing for the Kingdom if we all did our part and worked together and didn't focus on the little things that bring such distraction to the body.

I need to look at everyone with different eyes--I need to see them through God's eyes--and see what role they need to be fulfilling in the body and then do all I can to encourage them to do what it is they have been called to do. I need to help them recognize and reach their Kingdom potential as part of my role in the body of Christ.

Prayer

Father, thank You for Your Word today and what You had for me to learn and grow through. I have a lot of work ahead of me . . . . but the good news is--I don't have to do it alone. Lord, I need Your gifts of discernment and encouragement and wisdom as I work to help the body recognize and reach their Kingdom potential. I am so excited Lord about what You are going to do! Thank YOU!!!!

Life Journal November 10, 2007
Today's readings: Job 35-36; 1 Corinthians 7-8

Using the Right Tools

Scripture

"You think that everyone should agree with your perfect knowledge. While knowledge may make us feel important, it is love that really builds up the church. Anyone who claims to know all the answers doesn't really know very much. But the person who loves God is the one God knows and cares for."

1 Corinthians 8.1b-3

Observation

Love is the primary tool for building up the church.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

In a time of "how to books" that gives us "knowledge" of how we need to "do" church so that it can grow, I find these verses very inspiring.

No matter how much we know, how much we do "right," how many different books we read to learn the "magic trick to building up the church," there is only one thing that truly builds up the church . . . love.

All the information/knowledge can help . . . . but it really can't help if I leave out the most important thing--love. I must first love God and then demonstrate my love for Him by loving others.

My focus needs to be on loving God and then loving others if I am going to build up the church.

Prayer

Dad, thanks for Your Word today. As always, it reminds me of what is truly important. I confess that sometimes I get caught up in new ideas . . . . but it is only because I want to see Your church to be healthy and growing. I want to see us reaching out and loving those who don't know you. Lord, help me to discern what will benefit the Kingdom building and what will get in the way--help me to use the right tools--the tool of love. Thank You.

Life Journal November 9, 2007
Today's readings: Job 34; 1 Corinthians 4-6

Living In Power

Scripture

"For the Kingdom of God is not just fancy talk; it is living by God's power."

1 Corinthians 4.20

Observation

Talk is cheap--living out our faith can only be done through the power of God.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

We know the right words--we know how to sound "Christian." But, does our lives truly demonstrate what we say we believe? This can only happen if we live out our faith by allowing God's power--living in us in the form of the Holy Spirit--to rule our lives.

Yet, I often live a powerless life. Why? Because I try to do it myself. How much more could "I" accomplish if I allowed God to work through me and in me to accomplish what He wants for the Kingdom? It is a matter of giving up control . . . . daily--or even minute by minute if necessary.

Why would I choose to be powerless when I can walk in God's power--when I can live and operate and move and have my being in God's power????

I often ask when small petty conflicts arise--Is it a Kingdom issue? But, I must move past the asking--the fancy talk--and move into Kingdom action--walking in God's power.

Prayer

Father God, I don't know why it is so difficult to let go and trust You. I give up so much when I don't. And yet, I hold on to what I know so tightly. Lord, help pry my fingers loose. I want to give you complete and total control. I want to have Your power in my life. I want to be more than fancy words--I want to live and walk in Kingdom power that I can only receive from You when I give You complete and total control of my life--when I allow the Holy Spirit to reign in my life. Lord, I look forward to what You are going to do in my life and through my life. Thank You!!

Life Journal November 8, 2007
Today's readings: Job 30; 1 Corinthians 1-3

An Untapped Source

Scripture

"But we know these things because God has revealed them to us by his Spirit, and his Spirit searches out everything and shows us even God's deep secrets. . . . And God has actually given us his Spirit (not the world's spirit) so we can know the wonderful things God has freely given us. . . . But we can understand these things, for we have the mind of Christ."

1 Corinthians 2.10,12,16b

Observation

God uses His Holy Spirit to teach us and reveal more of God to us.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

As I read God's Word today I realize how little I count on the Holy Spirit to reveal God's truth and wisdom to me. I talk about how important the Holy Spirit is in my life, but do I take advantage of this amazing gift that God has given me. What more could I do if I truly plugged in to the Holy Spirit, if I allowed the Holy Spirit to rule in my life. To think that, because of the Holy Spirit [which is actually God] residing in me, I have the mind of Christ. It is more than I can comprehend. And what I am realizing today is that I do not depend on the Holy Spirit--therefore, do not receive even a fraction of the benefits of having Him in my life. What a waste. How much more could I do if I were to truly turn my life over to God/Christ/Holy Spirit?!?!?!?!

Prayer

Father, I confess that I do not depend on the Holy Spirit as I should. I want You, through Your Spirit, to reign in my life. To give me wisdom, strength, . . . . . to give me the mind of Christ. It is what you desire for all of us. . . . even me. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit. May I continue to give myself to You more and more so that the Holy Spirit can reign in my life. Thank You for Your promises. May I be filled with more and more of Your Spirit each day.

Life Journal 7 November 2007
Today's readings: Job 31, 32; Galatians 5, 6

What Really Counts

Scripture

"What counts is whether we really have been changed into new and different people."

Galatians 6.15b

Observation

If Christ truly lives in us then it needs to show--we cannot remain the same.

Application (How will I be different because of what I just read?)

How many people do I know that claim to know Christ, but their lives don't show it? How often does my life not show it? Ouch.

When we have accepted Christ as our personal Savior, the Holy Spirit comes and resides in us. Galatians 5 talks about how the Holy Spirit gives us the desire to do what we should. Verse 17b-18 says, "These two forces [our sinful nature and the Holy Spirit] are constantly fighting each other, and your choices are never free from this conflict. But when you are directed by the Holy Spirit, you are no longer subject to the law."

It doesn't say it will be easy, but it does tell me that I have help. So, I can make the right choices. I can be changed into a new and different person!

And what will that person look like? Galatians 5.22-23 tells me: "But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control."

Do these fruits show themselves daily in my life? I have work to do, but praise God, I have the Holy Spirit to help me!

Prayer

Heavenly Father, I want to be changed and different. I don't want to live by my evil desires. But, I cannot do it alone. I need Your help through Your Holy Spirit. Open my ears so I can hear His direction. Open my eyes so I can see the path You would have me follow. Strengthen me. Help me especially with self-control. May I give all control over to You. Thank You Father.

Life Journal November 6, 2007
Today's readings: Job 30; Psalm 120; Galatians 3, 4

Child of God

Scripture

"So you are all children of God through faith in Christ Jesus. And all who have been united with Christ in baptism have been made like him. There is no longer Jew or Gentile, slave or free, male or female. For you are all Christians--you are one in Christ Jesus. And now that you belong to Christ, you are the true children of Abraham. You are his heirs, and now all the promises God gave to him belong to you....And because you Gentiles have become his children, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, and now you can call God your dear Father. Now you are no longer a slave but God's own child. And since you are his child, everything he has belongs to you."

Galatians 3. 26-29; 4.6-7

Observation

Once we accept Jesus as our personal Savior we become a child of the Most High God!

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

I am God's child. I AM God's child! So, why do I act like an orphan so much of the time? I should walk with my head up, walk in boldness and strength and love--because I am God's child.

My earthly parents adopted me--gave me their name, their love, and their acceptance as their child. God has adopted me into His family--He has given me His name, His love, and His acceptance as His child. I am God's child!

Just as I went to my earthly parents for all my needs, for direction, for protection, for my care--God wants me to look to Him to meet all my needs, for life's direction, for my protection, and for my care.

He loves me as His own. He loves me as He does His Son, Jesus. He wants me to walk as His child.

I think about children arguing over whose dad has the best job, is the strongest, provides the best. And I think--it's my Dad! God is the best Dad ever. And He is my Dad!!

I need to remember today just who my Dad is--I am God's child!

Prayer

Dad, thank You for loving me so much. Thank You for taking such good care of me. Thank You for loving me enough to discipline me when I need it. Thank You for sending Jesus so I could be Your child. I love You Dad!

Life Journal November 5, 2007
Today's readings: Job 28, 29; Galatians 1, 2

Pleasing God

Scripture

"Obviously, I'm not trying to be a people pleaser! No, I am trying to please God. If I were still trying to please people I would not be Christ's servant.

Galatians 1.10

Observation

We can't please people and God--you have to choose who you are going to please.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

Sometimes it is hard to do what we should to please God when people are all around us telling us what, how, when, and where we should do everything. As a pastor, I have many who see their role as being my "boss." When, in truth, I only have One--God. And try as hard as I might to listen and be faithful to what God calls me to do, sometimes it is really hard when all the other voices are shouting at you and angry because you don't do it their way--which obviously is the right way.

So, how can I be different--how can I bring "peace" to my life as a servant of the Most High? I can't. I have to listen for God's voice and then do what He asks--no matter the cost. I have to weigh what I hear/do against the Word so I make sure it is His voice I am following and not my own--or someone elses.

Sometimes it would be easier to take the road everyone points to--but God never promised me it would be easy to serve Him. I must make the choice--who do I serve . . . . God or man? May I be found faithful in serving God.

Prayer

Lord, forgive me for sometimes giving in to the pressure of others. I pray for wisdom, courage, boldness, strength, and compassion so that I can walk in the ways You want me to go. I cannot do it without You. And, Lord, please open the eyes and ears of others so that they will also hear Your voice and see the path and journey You are calling us to.

Life Journal October 24, 2007
Today's readings: Job 15; Acts 19, 20

The Gift of Encouragement

Scripture

"When it was all over, Paul sent for the believers and encouraged them. Then he said good-bye and left for Macedonia. Along the way, he encouraged the believers in all the towns he passed through."

Acts 20.1-2

Observation

It is important to encourage one another.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

For some reason, I hadn't thought about Paul as an encourager. But, he was. And Luke included it in the Scriptures. So, it must be something important for me to remember . . . . . and do. [smile]

Why is it easier to judge and criticize rather than encourage. Why do words that tear down come quicker than those that build-up and encourage?

Today, I will watch my words. Today, I will use my words to build-up and to encourage--fellow believers . . . . . . and all those that God places in my path.

Prayer

Father, I would love to be known as one who is an encourager. One who builds people up--not beat them down. Lord, since my words reflect my relationship with You, may they be Your words--filled with hope, joy, love, and encouragement. And, may You use them to draw people to you!

I'm going to be away for a little while. Keep checking back!
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog!
Be blessed!
mo

Life Journal October 14, 2007
Today's readings: Nehemiah 11, 12; Psalm 1; Acts 3

Watching for the Opportunity

Scripture

"Peter and John went to the Temple one afternoon to take part in the three o'clock prayer service. As they approached the Temple, a man lame from birth was being carried in. Each day he was put beside the Temple gate, the one called the Beautiful Gate, so he could beg from the people going into the Temple. When he saw Peter and John about to enter, he asked them for some money.

"Peter and John looked at him intently, and Peter said, 'Look at us!' The lame man looked at them eagerly, expecting a gift. But Peter said, 'I don't have any money for you. But I'll give you what I have. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, get up and walk!'

"Then Peter took the lame man by the right hand and helped him up. And as he did, the man's feet and anklebones were healed and strengthened. He jumped up, sood on his feet, and began to walk! Then, walking, leaping and praising God, he went into the Temple with them.

"All the people saw him walking and heard him praising God. When they realized he was the lame beggar they had seen so often at the Beautiful Gate, they were absolutely astounded! They all rushed out to Solomon's Colonnade, where he was holding tightly to Peter and John. Everyone stood there in awe of the wonderful thing that had happened.

"Peter saw his opportunity and addressed the crowd."

Observation

We need to always be looking for the doors that God opens for us to be able to share the Good News.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

How often has God opened a door or made a way for me to share the Good News and I have missed my chance? Peter looked for those opportunities. "Everyone stood there in awe of the wonderful thing that had happened. Peter saw his opportunity and addressed the crowd." He was watching for opportunities to share about Jesus.

I believe God still gives us opportunities for us to share the Good News. I think we miss a lot of them. It might not be someones healing, but there are many times God does something amazing and we don't use that opportunity to tell about the One who did it.

I must be continually watching and praying for those opportunities . . . and then make the most of them.

Prayer

Heavenly Father, open my eyes so that I don't miss the opportunities You give me to share the Good News of Your Son, Jesus Christ. Give me a boldness and may I always be prepared with a Word of the hope that I have. Thank You!

Life Journal October 13, 2007
Today's readings: Nehemiah 9.10; Acts 2

Remembering and Confessing and Worshiping

Scripture

"On October 31 the people returned for another observance. This time they fasted and dressed in Sackcloth and sprinkled dust on theirheads. Those of Israelite descent separated themselves from all foreigners as they confessed their own sins and the sins of their ancestors. The Book of the Law of the Lord their God was read aloud to them for about three hours. Then for three more hours they took turns confessing their sins and worshiping the Lord their God."

Nehemiah 9.1-3

Observation
It is important that we confess our sins--individually and corporately.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)
Chapter 9 of Nehemiah is a powerful chapter--it is a reminder of all that God had done for His people . . . . and all the times that they had sinned against Him. . . . and God's amazing faithfulness and unfailing love and patience and mercy!

I am not very good at confessing my sins. I act as if I don't talk about it--it will disappear or no one [especially God] will know about it. I like to think of myself being "above" sinning--when in truth, I sin more often than I would like to think. I sin in the things I do--I sin in the things that I don't do that I should--I sin.

I also don't do a very good job of remembering all that God has done for me in the past. I am too busy thinking of all the things He needs to be doing for me now. God's people remembered and recited His past provision, care, and faithfulness. They kept it before them, so they wouldn't forget. How quickly I forget if I don't keep an ongoing "history" of His great faithfulness to me. It is so important for me to remember.

In chapter 9, their is a rhythm of remembering all God has done, confession, and then remembering his unfailing love and mercy. When I remember God's faithfulness in the past, all that He has done for me, then I can clearly see where I have not been faithful to Him--and then I can confess, yet . . . . I can then remember His amazing faithfulness and gift of forgiveness.
I need to spend sometime today remembering God's faithfulness in the past, confessing my sin, and then praising Him for who He is and His unfailing love and mercy.

Prayer
"Stand up and praise the Lord your God, for he lives from everlasting to everlasting!"

"Praise his glorious name! It is far greater than we can think or say. You alone are the Lord. You made the skies and the heavens and all the stars. You made the earth and the seas and everything in them. You preserve and give life to everything, and all the angels of heaven worship you." (vs. 5-6)

Lord, You are so amazing--words cannot express who You are and all that You do! You alone are God. You alone are worthy of all my praise.

Father God, hear my confession. I doubt when I shouldn't. I look at circumstances instead of You. I speak when I should be quiet and am quiet when I should speak up. I judge others--as if I have a clue. I don't love enough. I don't serve enough. I don't want to walk through the doors You open--I want You to open the doors that I want instead. I allow so many things to get in the way of worshiping You and serving You. I whine. . . . . . My sins are so many, Lord. Please forgive me, cleanse my heart.

"But you are a God of forgivenss, gracious and merciful, slow to become angry, and full of unfailing love and mercy. You do not abandon me." [vs.17]

Thank You for loving me so much that You sent Your Son, Jesus, to pay the price for my sin. I don't understand that kind of love, but, Lord, I accept it. Thank You.

Life Journal October 12, 2007
Today's readings: Nehemiah 5,6; Psalm 146; Luke 24

Still They Doubted

Scripture

"But very early on Sunday morning the women came to the tomb, taking the spices they had prepared. They found that the stone covering the entrance had been rolled aside. So they went in, but they couldn't find the body of the Lord Jesus. They were puzzled, trying to think what could have happened to it. Suddenly, two men appeard to them, clothed in dazzling robes. The women were terrified and bowed low before them. Then the men asked, 'Why are you looking in a tomb for someone who is alive? He isn't here! He has risen from the dead! Don't you remember what he told you back in Galilee, that the Son of Man must be betrayed into the hands of sinful men and be crucified, and that he would rise again the third day?'

"Then they rememberd that he had said this. So they rushed back to tell his eleven disciples--and everyone else--what had happened. The women who went to the tomb were Mary Magadalene, Joanna, Mary the mother of James, and several others. They told the apostles what had happened, but the story sounded like nonsense, so they didn't believe it. However, Peter ran to the tomb to look. Stooping he peered in and saw the empty linen wrappings; then he went home again, wondering what had happened. . . . . .

"Then the two from Emmaus told their story of how Jesus had appeared to them as they were walking along the road and how they had recognized him as he was breaking the bread. And just as they were telling about it, Jesus himself was suddenly standing there among them. He said, 'Peace be with you.' But the whole group was terribley frightened, thinking they were seeing a ghost! 'Why are you frightened?' he asked. 'Why do you doubt who I am? Look at my hands. Look at my feet. You can see that it's really me. Touch me and make sure that I am not a ghost, because ghosts don't have bodies, as you see that I do!' As he spoke, he held out his hands for them to see, and he showed them his feet.

"Still they stood there doubting, filled with joy and wonder."

Luke 24. 1-12,35-41a

Observation

They doubted what they knew or saw.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

They (the disciples) know that Jesus is no longer in the grave. Two have claimed to have seen him (on the road to Emmaus). He suddenly appears to them--speaks to them--shows them his hands and feet . . . . . . and yet, "Still they stood there doubting."

It is amazing to think that they would doubt that he had arose from the dead. They had all the proof, including seeing Him. But, it didn't fit in their understanding.

How often does Jesus/God show Himself to me and I miss it because He shows Himself in unexpected ways? Since it doesn't fit in my frame of reference, since it is "out of the ordinary" I don't see Him and what He is doing in my life--or in the life of someone else. We have our set of norms in our minds and if something falls outside of that we dismiss it. Jesus is anything but normal. He will never fit into a box. And because of that, even though I have seen Him at work so often--I miss Him. I doubt that it is Him speaking to me. I doubt that He is at work in my life or in the life of someone else. I doubt that He could or would do something. I doubt. Just like the disciples.

But, He doesn't give up showing Himself to me. He continues to move in my life. He continues to speak to my heart. He continues to change me . . . . in spite of me. He didn't give up on the disciples . . . . . . . and He doesn't give up on me.

Prayer

Thank You that You continue to show Yourself to me in so many ways. Forgive me for doubting. Forgive my lack of faith. Please continue to come into my heart, my life and change me.