Life Journal, November 23, 2009
Today's readings: Matthew 14-16

A Thank-filled Life

Scripture

Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5.16-18

Observation

No matter what is going on in our life, we are to be thankful.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

Okay, this is not in the reading for today--but it is what God is working on in me and, it is Thanksgiving week, afterall.

I don't know exactly when it happened, but God pointed out to me recently that I have not had a thankful heart. I haven't been thankful for the good stuff, let alone anything else. And it has shown. My heart has been heavy for some time. My joy hasn't been there. I've been whining. And I think it stems from my lack of thankfulness.

If I choose to live a thankful life--it changes me--from the inside out. I look for reasons to be thankful--not just the obvious ones . . . the air I breathe, having a roof over my head, food to eat, the gift of salvation, people who love me . . . but also those things that are difficult in my life. And in being intentionally thankful (it's the only way I can do it sometimes) it changes me and my outlook on life.

So today, I choose to be thankful--in all circumstances . . . the good, the bad, the ugly. And I can do this because my God is faithful, loving, present, trustworthy, eternal, creator, healer, . . .

Prayer

THANK YOU Father for my life, for all that You have given me and all You have taken away, for all that You have withheld, for all the struggles, for all the questions, for the known and the unknown, for those who love me and those who don't, for Your love--especially as You demonstrated it through Your Son, Jesus the Christ, for family and friends . . . and enemies, for the good times and the hard times----thank You for loving me too much to leave me as I am. May my life reflect an attitude of thankfulness to You!

Life Journal, September 18, 2009
Today's readings: Ezekiel 45, 46; Luke 1

Do I Really Believe It?

Scripture

[Gabriel, the angel, speaking to Mary (the mother of Jesus)] "For nothing is impossible with God."

[Elizabeth, Mary's (mother of Jesus) aunt, speaking] "You are blessed because you believed that the Lord would do what he said."

Luke 1. 37, 45

Observation

All things are possible with God and we are blessed when we believe God will do what He says.

Application (How will I be different because of what I just read?)

So, do I really believe these two verses?? Or maybe the better question would be . . . Do I live as if I believe these two verses?

It is one thing to say that I believe that nothing is impossible with God--but it is a whole other thing to live like I really believe it. That means I have to trust God completely, even when I don't feel like it or don't like what He is doing, or can't see Him at work. It means that I have to be willing to proclaim that with God nothing is impossible--knowing that it may not appear that way in the end.

Do I believe that God will do what He says? The catch here is--it doesn't say God will do what I say. Big difference. I think we re-word it to mean what we want it to mean. We want it to say that we believe God will do what WE say. And so, we are then blessed.

Two difficult verses. . .I know that they should be easy to go along with, to agree with . . . but they are not that easy for me. Difficult times in life make me wrestle with them. Do I believe them?

This is when I have to believe them no matter what things "look like." I have to go back to the truths that "I know." I know that the Bible doesn't lie. I know that God doesn't lie. I know that God is faithful, trustworthy. I know that He loves me. I know that He sent Jesus for me so I can have eternal life with Him. . . . I know that nothing is impossible with God. . . . I know that I am blessed when I believe the Lord will do what He says. I do know . . . I need to live it. But . . . .

Prayer

Father God, sometimes I wrestle with these verses . . . . I know that they are true . . . . yet it doesn't always "feel" like they are. I know that is when I am looking at things through my eyes and not Yours. Help me to look through Your eyes. Help me to put my full trust in you. Help me to grow in my faith. Thank You that You are patient with me . . . .loving me and guiding me and helping me to find and see Your truth.

Life Journal, September 15, 2009
Today's readings: Ezekiel 38, 39; Psalm 145; Revelation 20

What Really Matters

Scripture

And I saw a great white throne and the One sitting on it. The earth and sky fled from his presence, but they found no place to hide. I saw the dead, both great and small, standing before God's throne. And the books were opened, including the Book of Life. And the dead were judged according to what they had done, as recorded in the books. The sea gave up its dead, and death and the grave gave up their dead. And all were judged according to their deeds. Then death and the grave were thrown into the lake of fire. This lake of fire is the second death. And anyone whose name was not found recorded in the Book of Life was thrown into the lake of fire.

Revelation 20.11-15

Observation

Someday it will matter if our name is in the Book of Life and what we have done here on earth with our lives.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

So many people worry about the "end times." They spend lots of time trying to figure out when it is going to happen. I think there are more important things to worry about--because we don't know when Jesus will return (Jesus tells us that ONLY the Father knows when it is going to happen).

Our first concern is that our name is in the Book of Life. Have I given my life to Jesus--really given my life to Him?? If I have it will show!!!

Next--what am I doing with my life. If I am going to stand before God someday and answer for what I have done, then I think I should be thinking about what that might look like. What took first place in my life? Who/what did I serve? Who did I love? Who did I share the love of God with? Did I love the unloveable? Did I reach out to the poor and homeless and hungry? Did I make a difference in the name of Jesus? Did I live for myself or for Jesus??

Rather than worry about when all of it is going to happen, I need to focus on the here and now--who is in charge of my life and how I am living my life. I have some work to do!

Prayer

Father God, help me to focus on living my life for You today. May I be found loving You, loving others in Your name, and impacting the world for You! May I never settle for anything less--because in the end, nothing else will matter!

Life Journal, July 31, 2009
Today's readings: Isaiah 63,64; Psalm 107; John 2

A Reminder

Scripture

"It is I, the Lord, announcing your salvation!

It is I, the Lord, who has the power to save!"

Isaiah 63.1b

Observation

ONLY God has the power to save.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

I have no power to save anyone--let alone myself. An important reminder. It's amazing at how hard I work to save those I care about (and myself) from problems, pain, natural consequences. I don't want them (or me) to have to suffer . . . so I try to save us all. And I can't. I fail miserably.

I am not promised a life free from suffering, pain, trials, problems--actually quite the opposite. Afterall, Jesus told us, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me." [Mark 8.34] When I want a life free from problems, pain and suffering--I am being selfish. To be a follower of Christ, I must be willing to lay down my life--my wants, my desires--pick up the cross and follow Christ, wherever it leads. And that doesn't necessarily mean a rose covered path.

Again, that brings me back to "Do I trust God enough to do this?" Which leads me back to something else that I have been wrestling with--if I don't trust God then I don't really believe that He loves me. If I truly trust God--and really believe that He loves me--then I am willing to let go of my life and allow Him complete control--knowing that no matter how things may appear or what happens--He loves me and He will take care of me and He will never leave me alone. It means trusting Him to save me--no matter what that might look like (and it probably won't look anything like I would like for it to).

God alone has the power to save me. I can trust Him and His love for me.

"Can anything ever separate me from Christ's love? Does it mean he no longer loves me if I have trouble or calamity, or am persecuted, or hungry or destitute, or in danger, or threated with death? No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is mine through Christ, who loves me.

"And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate me from God's love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither my fears for today nor my worries about tomorrow--not even the power of hell can separate me from God's love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below--indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate me from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord." [Romans 8.35,37-39--personalized]

Prayer

Thank You Lord God, for Your love and Your gift of salvation. Thank You that I can trust You--and thank You for being patient when I struggle with trusting You and believing that You could really love me. Help me to look only to You and depend only on You for my salvation. You alone have the power to save me . . . from myself.

Life Journal, July 29, 2009
Today's readings: Isaiah 57-59; Psalms 103; 2 Peter 3

Fasting?

Scripture

"Is this what you call fasting? Do you really think this will please the Lord?

"No, this is the kind of fasting I want:

Free those who are wrongly imprisoned; lighten the burden of those who work for you.

Let the oppressed go free, and remove the chains that bind people.

Share your food with the hungry, and give shelter to the homeless.

Give clothes to those who need them, and do not hide from relatives who need your help.

"Then your salvation will come like the dawn, and your wounds will quickly heal.

Your godliness will lead you forward, and the glory of the Lord will protect you from behind.

Then when you call, the Lord will answer.

'Yes, I am here.' He will quickly reply.

"Remove the heavy yoke of oppression.

Stop pointing your finger and spreading vicious rumors!

Feed the hungry, and help those in trouble.

Then your light will shine out from the darkness,

and the darkness around you will be as bright as noon.

The Lord will guide you continually, giving you water when you are dry and restoring your strength.

You will be like a well-watered garden, like an ever-flowing spring."

Isaiah 58.5-11

Observation

Helping the oppressed and poor pleases God and we receive His blessings.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

I like to think that I am active when it comes to social justice issues. But, it is just a drop in the bucket. We are called to do so much more. I do enough to "feel good" about myself--I give here, help there. There are so many needs . . .

If I am doing only what I am comfortable with doing, then I am not doing enough. If I am to "fast" in this manner, then I need to be uncomfortable--just as when we fast from food we get hungry, which makes us uncomfortable. I need to do more. I need to "give up" some things in my life so that others can have freedom, food, housing, clothing.

Today, I will see what opportunities or doors God is putting in front of me to make a difference in the lives of others. Today I will fast from my wants so others might have what they need.

Prayer

Thank You, Lord, for Your word today. Open my eyes and my heart to the struggles of those around me. Help me to see others with Your eyes and give me wisdom in how to best help. Lord, I want to make a difference in someone's life today--lead me, show me, give me wisdom. Thank You Lord. May my "fasting" today be pleasing and acceptable to You.

Life Journal, July 28, 2009
Today's readings: Isaiah 53-56; 2 Peter 2

Slave To What Controls Me

Scripture

For you are a slave to whatever controls you. 2 Peter 2.19b

Observation

I am a slave to those things that I allow to control me.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

What do I allow to control me? People. I give others too much power/control in my life. And, in doing so, I am not true to God or myself.

Jesus said, ". . . He [God] has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released, . . ." [Luke 4.18] I do not need to be held captive by those I serve. . . .or anyone else.

So, why do I allow it? Because my trust is misplaced. Because I am fearful of what others will think. Because I am tired of the battles over the unimportant. Because I have lost my focus/my calling.

The reason(s) really don't matter--what matters is that I become a slave to Christ--not to people. I only allow God/Christ/Holy Spirit to control my life.

When did I allow it to happen? I think when I decided that sometimes it's easier not to "fight" those who want to be in control--because sometimes the fight gets old, I get tired, I see no progress, and I give up and give in. But, that's not what I am called to do. I am called to stand firmly planted in God and to be bold and to fight the good fight.

So how will I be different today? I will allow God to have control in my life rather than others. I will listen to God's voice rather than the "shouts" of those who want to control. I will remember Who is truly in control and intentionally place my trust and hope in Him. I will allow God to fight my battles.

Prayer

Father God, thank You for Your word today and the reflection of my self that I saw in it. Lord, You are my Master--I only want to serve You. Help me to stand firm in You. Help me to trust in You and You alone. Thank You for freeing me. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for shining Your Light on this area of my life today and not leaving me the same.

Life Journal, July 27, 2009
Today's readings: Isaiah 50-52; Psalm 92; 2 Peter 1

No Fear?

Scripture

Because the Sovereign Lord helps me,

I will not be disgraced.

Therefore, I have set my face like a stone,

determined to do his will

And I know that I will not be put to shame. . . .

If you are walking in darkness,

without a ray of light,

trust in the Lord,

and rely on your God.

Isaiah 50.7, 10

Observation

God's got my back.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

It is so easy to allow others to have power over different areas of our lives--all because we want to please others or because we don't want the hassle that will come if we do something different. How often do I give in to the will of others rather than follow the will of God--all because I do not want to cause waves?

But that's not what I am called to do. The only One I need to concern with pleasing is God. . .not man. It is His will that I need to follow.

I have felt that I have been walking in darkness, without a ray of light. There seemed to be no life-giving hope--it felt like it had been stolen. But, that is because I was not trusting God, I was not relying on my God. I was allowing others to have too much power in my life.

What has pulled me away? It doesn't really matter--what is important is that I have recognized that I have gotten off of the path and that I make the effort to get back on it (with God's help).

So, today, I will "set my face like a stone, determined to do His will" . . . not worrying about the cost. . . . knowing that I can trust Him completely . . . no matter what . . . all because of His amazing extravagant love for me.

Prayer

Today, Lord God, I ask for You to show me Your will--what it is that You want me to do. Today, I put my trust in You. Today, I will rely only on You. Thank You for Your love for me. Thank You for the Light You bring into my life. Thank You for reminding me that I do not need to walk in darkness. Today, may I walk boldly into all that You have called me to. Today, may my life honor You and You alone.

Life Journal, July 23, 2009
Today's readings: 2 Kings 20; Isaiah 38, 39; Psalm 75; 1 Peter 2

A Chosen People

Scripture

For you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God's very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into the wonderful light.

1 Peter 2.9

Observation

Because of God's goodness [not our own] we are His . . . chosen by Him to be His very own possession . . . and we are to share what God has done in our lives with others.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

I belong to God--not because of my own goodness--but because of His. And I am to share what He has done for me with others. I cannot just take it for granted. . .I am to show others God's goodness.

But that means that I have to believe that God is good.

There is a responsive saying that is often used in churches--someone says, "God is good" and the response is "All the time"--then in response to that they say, "All the time"--to which the response is "God is good."

Do I really believe God is good? Many people use the excuse that the don't believe in God because of all the pain and suffering in the world. They go on to say that if there was a God and if He was loving and good--there would be no pain or suffering, no sickness or violence . . . nothing bad. They need "someone" to blame, so they blame God.

A pat answer won't work--something I just say because it is the right thing to say. I must believe that God is good if I am going to show His goodness to others. That means that no matter what happens in my life . . . the bad along with the good . . . I must trust that God is with me and that He can and will bring something good out of it.

And to trust God I must believe that He really does love me. . .no matter what I feel. Feelings can be deceptive--but God isn't--His word tells me He is faithful, trustworthy, and loves me with an unfailing love.

So, today, I will cling to the truths that I know and I will share my experiences of God's goodness, my journey from darkness into His marvelous light.

Prayer

Father God, thank You for Your patience with me, once again, as I wrestle with Your Word. Lord, today may I live a life that reflects Your goodness. Today may I help to light the path and lead someone out of darkness and into Your marvelous light. Thank You that I am one of Your chosen people. May I live a life of boldness and power, of love and grace and mercy, a life that clearly reflects You.

Life Journal, May 20, 2009
Today's readings: 1 Kings 6; 2 Chronicles 3; Psalms 97; Romans 1

Answered Prayer

Scripture

One of the things I always pray for is the opportunity, God willing, to come at last to see you. For I long to visit you so I can bring you some spiritual gift that will help you grow strong in the Lord. When we get together, I want to encourage you in your faith, but I also want to be encouraged by yours.

Romans 1.10-12

Observation

Paul prayed for the opportunity to come and see the Roman people.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

We learn about Paul's prayer being answered in Acts 28.16. Paul arrives in Rome--as a prisoner . . .after being arrested, slapped in the face, shipwrecked, and bitten by a poisonous snake. Not exactly the type of answer to prayer I would be looking for.

God answered Paul's prayer--but not by just letting him go to Rome. There was a series of events--seemingly negative--that got him there. But, I don't hear Paul complaining about them.

Paul's journey to Rome reminds me that God answers prayer--just not always the way I would like for Him to. Sometimes it is not an easy journey to the answer. But Paul never gives up--he never gives in--he stays in the moment--always looking for a way to serve God and bring Him glory and honor.

Even when the journey gets difficult, I need to keep my focus on God and trust that He is answering my prayers--whether it looks like it or not--or whether it feels like it at the time. I need to be alert and aware in the moment--taking life as it comes, making the most of today for the Kingdom, trusting that God is at work in me and through me--answering my prayers.

Prayer

God, this is a really hard lesson. I like the easy road . . . the easy answer to prayers. Forgive me for my lack of patience, my lack of faith and trust. Forgive me for wanting a quick fix. Give me wisdom for each day and help me to focus on the day at hand--looking for all the opportunities You give me to serve You, worship You, thank You, love You, and walk with You. Thank You for never giving up on me--even when I give up on myself. Thank You for loving me . . . always.

Life Journal, May 12, 2009
Today's readings: 2 Samuel 21-23; 1 Thessalonians 1

Protection

Scripture

Once again the Philistines were at war with Israel. And when David and his men were in the thick of battle, David became weak and exhausted. Ishbi-benob was a descendant of the giants; his bronze spearhead weighed more than seven pounds, and he was armed with a new sword. He had cornered David and was about to kill him. But Abishai son of Zeruiah came to David's rescue and killed the Philistine. Then David's men declared, "You are not going out to battle with us again! Why risk snuffing out the light of Israel?"

2 Samuel 21.15-17

Observation

David had men who cared for his welfare and had his back.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

Reading these Scriptures today made me appreciate all the more those who "have my back" and walk with me in the journey God has me on--my Leadership Team. Sometimes we take the people God gives us, to walk and work with us and what they do for us, for granted. And sometimes we push back--wanting to prove that we are strong and can do it ourselves--when we don't have to . . . and shouldn't.

I am blessed to have this group to walk into battle with. They are willing to step in and fight for me when I can't (and shouldn't) do it by myself. They set a guard around me, protecting me and encouraging me.

I don't have 30 warriors--but I do have four who are faithful to do battle on my behalf and make the journey with me.

Prayer

Father God, thank You for reminding me that I am not alone in the battle. That You are with me and You have sent others to travel with me and fight with me . . . and for me. May I never take them for granted. Bless them Lord in a special way. Protect them. Strengthen them. Heal them. Give them wisdom. Give them vision for Your church. Renew them and refresh them. When they are weary or weak or tired of the battle, may they lean into Your strength, Your power, Your might for the journey. Lord, thank You for Jim, Rex, Cindy and Ron. May they experience Your love for them in a special way today. Thank You for my friends and co-workers in Christ.

Life Journal, May 8, 2009
Today's readings: 2 Samuel 15, 16; Psalm 32; Matthew 25

The Joy of Confession

Scripture

Oh, what joy for those

whose disobedience is forgiven,

whose sin is put out of sight!

Yes, what joy for those

whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt,

whose lives are lived in complete honesty!

When I refused to confess my sin,

my body wasted away,

and I groaned all day long.

Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me.

My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat.

Finally, I confessed all my sins to you

and stopped trying to hide my guilt.

I said to myself, "I will confess my rebellion to the Lord."

And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone!

Psalm 32.1-5

Observation

There is freedom and healing when we confess our sins.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

So true--when I carry my sin around with me, I get weighted down--it's difficult to function. It seems to grow. And it's so easy to get rid of--all I have to do is confess it to God! And He is faithful to forgive. [If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth. But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness. 1 John 1.8-9]

Sometimes I am so slow to confess my sin--do I think by not confessing it God won't see it? Do I think I don't need to confess it? What we forget is that confession is for us--it opens our eyes, it humbles us, it frees us from the hold of sin in our lives.

Today, I will examine my life and ask God to show me any unconfessed sin in it. Then I will spend time with Him, confessing and then praising Him for His faithfulness in forgiving me through Jesus.

Prayer

Father God, I confess that I don't always confess my sins as I should. Forgive me. Today, Lord God, shine Your light on all darkness in my life. Help me to recognize the sin that separates us, that holds me back from me being the person you want me to be. Thank You for sending Jesus to pay for my sins--without His sacrifice I could not come before You. Thank You for forgiving my sins and removing those burdens from me. Thank You for Your discipline--even when I fight against it--You love me too much to allow me to remain as I am. It is in the name of my Savior I pray this . . .

Life Journal, May 1, 2009
Today's readings: 1 Chronicles 14, 15; Psalm 132; Matthew 18

Asking God

Scripture

So David asked God, "Should I go out to fight the Philistines? Will you hand them over to me?"

The Lord replied, "Yes, go ahead. I will hand them over to you."

1 Chronicles 14.10

And once again David asked God what to do. "Do not attack them straight on," God replied. "Instead, circle around behind and attack them near the poplar trees. When you hear a sound like marching feet in the tops of the poplar trees, go out and attack! That will be the signal that God is moving ahead of you to strike down the Philistine army." So David did what God commanded, . . .

1 Chronicles 14.14-16

"Because you Levites did not carry the Ark the first time, the anger of the Lord our God burst out against us. We failed to ask God how to move it properly."

1 Chronicles 15.13

Observation

David asked God for guidance and God gave him clear instructions.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I just read?)

How often to I ask God for direction and actually hear Him? When I read these verses I found myself jealous that God spoke so clearly to David--why doesn't He speak to me that way?

Maybe I don't ask and really expect to hear from God. . .Maybe I ask God and then move on too quickly or I am too busy to hear or I just want Him to bless my plans, rather than hear from Him and do what He wants.

David expected to hear from God and didn't do anything until he did. In 1 Chronicles 15, he realizes when he didn't bother asking God and there was a consequence because of it [1 Chonricles 13.9-10].

So, how will I be different today? Stopping and asking and waiting and listening and expecting to hear from God. God is willing--but I must be a willing vessel.

Prayer

Lord, I am sorry that I get ahead of You, that I don't ask You--or when I do, I move ahead so quickly that I don't wait for Your answer. Forgive me. Speak to me, just as You did David. You are the same God, there is none like You. You came to be in relationship with me. You want to be in relationship with me. You want to guide me and lead me--give me wisdom so I can be used by You. Thank You for being so patient with me. Thank You for loving me so much.

Life Journal, April 30, 2009
Today's readings: 2 Samuel 6; 1 Chronicles 13; Psalm 68; Matthew 17

How Much Faith Does It Take?

Scripture

"You don't have enough faith," Jesus told them. "I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,'' and it would move. Nothing would be impossible."

Matthew 17.20 (NLT)

Observation

We can do nothing in our own strength--it is only through God's strength and power . . . and our complete faith and trust in Him--that anything can truly be accomplished.

Application

This is a difficult verse for me. It makes me wrestle with the faith question--how much faith does it take . . . and will I ever have enough? If it takes such a little amount of faith--what does that say about the faith I have? Will I ever have enough to see a mountain moved?

I think of the young Mary (Jesus' mother) when Gabriel came to her and informed her that she would become pregnant and give birth to the very Son of God. Gabriel says to her, "For nothing is impossible with God." [Luke 1.37]

Mary's reply is "I am the Lord's servant. May everyting you have said about me come true." [Luke 1.38] She had complete faith . . . and trust that God was more than able to make it all happen. And He did--a virgin conceived a child--not just any child, but the Son of God.

The enemy likes to get me to question my faith in God. He likes me to doubt that I have enough faith to accomplish anything--for when I doubt I am powerless, I don't trust that I have enough faith to even go to God and ask, let alone expect an answer.

The other struggle comes when God's answer is "no" or "wait"--we begin to doubt and take the blame for the answer not being what we believe it should be (taking the power from God and giving it to ourself). Rather than trusting God and maintaining faith in His response, we question Him and our faith. We don't use those opportunities to build up our faith--we allow the enemy to come in and steal it with doubts and distrust.

So, how will I be different today because of these Scriptures? I will stand strong--not in my own strength, but in God's--allowing Him to build my faith, trusting Him with all areas of my life . . . not just the ones that I orchestrate to win or show myself faithful.

Prayer

Father God, thank You for the promise that nothing is impossible for You. May I hold on to that truth and trust You. It's a scarey thing to ask You to build my faith--but Lord, if I am to accomplish all that You have for me to do, I need to exercise my faith "muscles." Help me to stand strong in Your strength. Help me to put my trust in You. Plug my ears when the enemy starts whispering about my lack of faith. Thank You for growing me in my faith.

Life Journal, February 12, 2009
Today's readings: Leviticus 18, 18; Psalm 13; Acts 19

Trust

Scripture

O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever?

How long will you look the other way?

How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul,

with sorrow in my heart every day?

How long will my enemy have the upper hand?

Turn and answer me, O Lord my God!

Restore the sparkle to my eyes, or I will die.

Don't let my enemies gloat, saying, "We have defeated him!"

Don't let them rejoice at my downfall.

But I trust in your unfailing love.

I will rejoice because you have rescued me.

I will sing to the Lord

because He is good to me.

Psalm 13

Observation

No matter how things may appear--or how I feel--God's unfailing love for me never does.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

Important truth--no matter how I may feel or what may be happening--I can trust in God's unfailing love for me. AND, I need to live in that truth . . . walk in it . . . claim it.

We focus too much on circumstances and "why me?" Instead the focus needs to be on God's unfailing love and how He has rescued me from death and His goodness to me. Those are the truths that I can count on.

Today I will walk in those truths.

Prayer

Father God, thank You for Your truth. Thank You for Your unfailing love--even though I do not deserve it--you pour it out on me extravagantly through the sacrifice of Your Son, Jesus. Thank You for the life You give me through that sacrifice. Forgive me for taking my focus off You and putting it on myself. You are all that matters. You are love and truth. Thank You.

Life Journal, February 11, 2009
Today's reading: Acts 18 (didn't do the Leviticus reading today)

A Worshiper of God

Scripture

Then Paul left the synagogue and went next door to the house of Titius Justus, a worshiper of God.

Acts. 18.7

Observation

Titius Justus was known for worshiping God.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

Wow--wouldn't it be great to be known as "a worshiper of God." I mean when people said your name they would just automatically say, Melinda, a worshiper of God . . . . What a great thing to be known for and to have it be so much a part of who you are that people would immediately think that.

May I be known as a worshiper of God. How different life would be if that was our focus--not all the other stuff that we deal with.

Prayer

Father God, I want to be known as a "worshiper of God" more than anything else--well also a "lover of God"--but they go hand in hand. Help me to stay focused on what is important, not the unimportant. Thank you, God. To You may all glory and honor be given. Forgive me when I doubt or my faith stutters or I give up. I want to stand strong, Lord God, but I can't without You.

Life Journal, February 10, 2009
Today's readings: Leviticus 13, 14; Acts 17

What/Who Do I Worship?

Scripture

While Paul was waiting for them in Athens, he was deeply troubled by all the idols he saw everywhere in the city. . . .

So Paul, standing before the council, addressed them as follows: "Men of Athens, I notice that you are very religious in every way, for as I was walking along I saw your many shrines. And one of your altars had this inscription on it: 'To an Unknown God.' This God, whom you worship without knowing is the one I'm telling you about.

"He is the God who made the world and everything in it. Since he is Lord of heaven and earth, he doesn't live in man-made temples, and human hands can't serve his needs--for he has no needs. He himself gives life and breath to everything, and he satisfies every need. From one man he created all the nations throughout the whole earth. He decided beforehand when they should rise and fall, and he determined their boundaries.

"His purpose was for the nations to seek after God and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him--though he is not far from any one of us. For in him we live and move and exist. As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.' And since this is true, we shouldn't think of God as an idol designed by craftsmen from gold or silver or stone."

Acts 17.24-30

Observation

God is not an idol to be worshiped--but the Creator of everything who wants to be in an intimate relationship with us.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

We aren't very different than the people that Paul met in Athens. We have many idols that we worship--People. . . things. . . .ideas . . . . power. . . . money . . . . jobs . . . . church buildings . . . . tradition . . . . the list seems endless.

God doesn't come in first very often . . . and yet it is in Him that "We live and move and exist." We take Him for granted. We spend so much time on our idols that we don't have much time for Him. . .He gets our "leftovers."

Today, I will look for those things that I worship--some out of habit, some out of desire, some . . . just because--and I will set them aside and return to God--worshiping Him and Him alone.

Prayer

Father, forgive me when I put my eyes on anything other than You. The world pulls at us and we give in so easy--usually without a fight. Lord, help me to stand strong, to tear down any idols that I have in my life, and to worship You alone. Thank You for Your amazing love and patience.

Life Journal, February 6, 2009

Purpose

Scripture

"We are here to proclaim that through this man Jesus there is forgiveness for your sins. Everyone who believes in him is declared right with God--something the law of Moses could never do."

Acts 13.38-39

Observation

It is all about Jesus.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

As a follower of Christ, I am here for one reason . . . to proclaim that through this man Jesus there is forgiveness for your [and mine] sins. Everything I do and say should point to that truth. If I live my life that way, without worrying about what others think or want from me, then I cannot go wrong and nothing else will matter.

Today, I will keep the main thing -- Jesus -- the main thing. I will not allow others to dictate what I say or do . . . only Jesus.

Prayer

Father God, too often I forget the one reason that I have life . . . it is because of You and the gift of Your Son, Jesus. Thank You. Today . . . and everyday . . . may my focus be only on You. May I point to You in what I say and do. Change me Lord. Use me. Forgive me when my eyes move off of You and onto myself. It is not about me. . .it is all about You. Thank You for loving me so faithfully and patiently. My hope and trust are in You. People will let us down . . . but You never will.

Life Journal, February 5, 2009
Today's readings: Exodus 39-40; Psalm 15; Acts 12

No Really

Scripture

5 But while Peter was in prison, the church prayed very earnestly for him.

6 The night before Peter was to be placed on trial, he was asleep, fastened with two chains between two soldiers. Others stood guard at the prison gate. 7 Suddenly, there was a bright light in the cell, and an angel of the Lord stood before Peter. The angel struck him on the side to awaken him and said, “Quick! Get up!” And the chains fell off his wrists. 8 Then the angel told him, “Get dressed and put on your sandals.” And he did. “Now put on your coat and follow me,” the angel ordered.

9 So Peter left the cell, following the angel. But all the time he thought it was a vision. He didn’t realize it was actually happening. 10 They passed the first and second guard posts and came to the iron gate leading to the city, and this opened for them all by itself. So they passed through and started walking down the street, and then the angel suddenly left him.

11 Peter finally came to his senses. “It’s really true!” he said. “The Lord has sent his angel and saved me from Herod and from what the Jewish leaders had planned to do to me!”

12 When he realized this, he went to the home of Mary, the mother of John Mark, where many were gathered for prayer. 13 He knocked at the door in the gate, and a servant girl named Rhoda came to open it. 14 When she recognized Peter’s voice, she was so overjoyed that, instead of opening the door, she ran back inside and told everyone, “Peter is standing at the door!”

15 “You’re out of your mind!” they said. When she insisted, they decided, “It must be his angel.”

16 Meanwhile, Peter continued knocking. When they finally opened the door and saw him, they were amazed. 17 He motioned for them to quiet down and told them how the Lord had led him out of prison. “Tell James and the other brothers what happened,” he said. And then he went to another place.

Acts 12.5-17

Observation

God answers prayer.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

I love these verses. They are so typical of us--we pray for God to do something and then when He does we can't believe it. Even Peter--to whom it was happening to--thought it was a vision, not really happening.

How different would our lives be if we really believed that God does amazing miraculous things. No He doesn't do them all the time, but I believe He does them more often than we give Him credit for...often because we don't know what "might have been" without His help.

So today, I will look for the miraculous. Today, I will trust that God is at work--in my life and in the life of others.

Prayer

Father God, we pray, not really expecting You to answer--or at least not in some miraculous way. We miss so much limiting You--afraid to ask too much--because what if You don't answer our prayers our way. We pray for a safe journey and when we arrive safe--we think, well God didn't have to intervene, not even realizing all the times You did--saving us. Lord, Our faith is small. Help us to grow it. Help us to trust You. Help us to pray for the miraculous and then see it!

Life Journal, February 4, 2009
Today's readings: Exodus 37-38; Psalm 19; Acts 11

Helping One Another

Scripture

"During this time some prophets traveled from Jerusalem to Antioch. One of them named Agabus stood up in one of the meetings and predicted by the Spirit that a great famine was coming upon the entire Roman world. (This was fulfilled during the reign of Claudis.) So the believers in Antioch decided to send relief to the brothers and sisters in Judea, everyone giving as much as they could. This they did, entrusting their gifts to Barnabas and Saul to take to the elders of the church in Jerusalem."

Acts 11.27-30

Observation

When others are struggling because of circumstances, we should be generous in our help.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

They helped as much as they could. They didn't save it for themselves, just in case they needed it--they helped those who needed it. How different would our world--my world--be if we gave out of our abundance--what God has so generously blessed us with--and helped . . . without judging whether they deserved it or not.

Instead we tend to hold onto what we have with tight fists--so we can't receive what God has for us. If we opened our hands--letting go of all that we hold on to--our hands would be ready to receive from God.

Today, may my hands be found open.

Prayer

Father God, You supply all my needs. You give me so much. I am so blessed by You. Today may my hands be found open--giving and sharing out of my abundance--praising You with all that I have.

Life Journal, February 3, 2009
Today's readings: Exodus 35-36; Acts 10

God Shows No Favoritism

Scripture

Then Peter replied, "I see very clearly that God shows no favoritism. In every nation he accepts those who fear him and do what is right. This is the message of Good News for the people of Israel--that there is peace with God through Jesus Christ, who is Lord of all."

Acts 10.34-36

Observation

God accepts ANYONE who confesses Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior.

Application (How will I be different today because of what I have just read?)

We look for people just like us when we share the Good News . . . and to come to our church. People who we will be comfortable around. We want them to "fit" the mold that we believe is right. But today's Scripture reminds us that God wants everyone and anyone--rich or poor, red or yellow or black or white or brown or purple, language doesn't matter, -- nothing matters except the change that takes place in their hearts. When will we get it--so we can reach out with God's love and gift of grace to ALL?

Prayer

Father God, thank You that You love even me. I am no different than anyone else who seeks You, and claims You as my Savior and Lord. I am no better--I am a sinner saved by grace--just like anyone else who comes to You. May I never hesitate to share the Good News with someone just because they are "different" from me. May I never see someone as "not deserving" of Your gift of grace. May I share Your love and Your Good News and Your gift of grace . . . extravagantly--just like You!